Monday was the night of the big switchover on the stressful work contract I’ve been using to face my mental health and return into life as a productive employable worjer. The weeks preceding have been a strange mixtures of highs and lows emotionally as I...
Today is a day that will test my new skills. It’s a depressing cold, gray Wednesday. It’s 10am and I’ve already experienced a few low points and terrifying moments of failure already. The kind of things that stand up and remind me the good streak...
I’ve been blogging on my bus and subway rides as a good way to work out my feelings and mindset in between therapy. It’s helpful, and I recommend it, even if you don’t really tell anybody about the blogs. They can still be therapeutic. It’s...
I’m just the right amount of the high to blog, and 9:36pm on a Thursday. I am doing my best not to panic, and not to freak out, because I feel a failure cominhg on, and I’m not sure what to do about it. Noteable this week. Phyciatrist on Monday. Weird. Not...
I woke up from another dream at around 7am today, a Wednesday, but it was a fresh awake wake-up. The first I’ve had since my medication screw up almost 3 weeks ago. I stood up, and didn’t lay back down again. I sat at the computer and started my morning...
I take a drug called Paxil for obsession. I missed one day and had the most obsessive dreams I could imagine. I woke up just now at 6 minutes to 6 am from an obsessive nightmare. My things were gone. All the useless things. The things I’d been collecting. I had...
